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January 4, 2015

Living in Fear

I am a teacher and I like what I do.  As someone who works with minors, I realize that I have to be careful about how I act around the students.  I understand that teachers have violated their trust that they were given and that is a cause for concern.
I really hate living my life as though someone is watching.  I am poly, kinky, and my sexuality is somewhat flexible.  I would like to embrace all of that and more, but I know that if my students or their parents find out that I am not a "moral person", then I will lose my job, my career.  "[T]he possibility of being exposed and fired for our consensual (but stigmatized) sexual practices is a very real concern for many kinky people."

So I have a Fetlife account and I am agonizing about what picture to use.  I don't want my face to show, because I don't want to be recognizable.  Even this blog is a danger, since it could be found by a student or parent.  I tried creating a whole new Gmail, but that just didn't work for me.  But I decided I would just start writing, because a life lived in fear isn't a life at all.  I don't use my real last name here, so that's something, at least.

I will keep my face obscured on 'R' and 'NC-17' sites.  I will try and keep it separate.  But I think I am just going to have to live with the fact that I can't change who I am and that is both teacher and a person with flexible sexuality.  That is simply the way of it, and so I will have to figure out a way to reconcile those two things.

2 comments:

  1. Just remember, if you're worried about sensitive information here, you could always go back to the electronic venue where we first met (hopefully, that's suitably obscure).

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  2. I have concerns about where the money goes for that little service. I may not fully trust my Google overlords, but this feels like the lesser evil.

    I do miss the community, though. Thanks for stopping in. :-)

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