"So when we found that we could not make sense/ Well you said that we would still be friends..."

It's been interesting learning economic theory and realizing how much of it applies to polyamory.  Opportunity cost, production curves and such all seem like really good things to apply. I think I am going to play around with the idea. It's nothing terribly original, but I want to get back to writing in my journal and I need a direction that isn't the same old whiny crap.

So Facebook reminded me that today has significance to me.

Two years ago, DA was with Primary on a camping trip even though we had originally scheduled the holiday together. I was trying to model good poly behavior and flexibility. Instead I felt unappreciated and walked all over. 

Last year, I was getting oral surgery. Someone canceled their appointment and so I found out I was going in with 24 hours notice. DA had promised my husband and I that he would help out. Not only did he not help, DA didn't even check in to see if the surgery went all right. It turns out that he had plans with his girlfriend and forgot or something. When I called him on it, he complained that I hadn't given him sufficient notice. Yes, he forgot that he was with me when I got the phone call rescheduling the appointment. 

About a month ago, DA blew me off and I haven't heard a word since. This was after I told him that I had significant health issues. I gave up then and it still stands. I'm trying not to think about what the end of October will bring. As a friend of mine will probably say, that's months from now, no reason to borrow trouble.

The reason I really wrote this entry is because of this version of the song which  I heard this for the first time this morning. The song and the style in which it was presented reflected how I was feeling. I am better off. I know. But still today's song was relevant to me when I reflected on that person I thought I used to know. 

Today's Song - Somebody That I Used to Know by PostModern Jukebox