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April 7, 2019

"Gone are the dark clouds that had me blind..."

I have learned a couple of things in the past few days.

1. When I am stressed about a lot of things in my life, it's much easier to find something small and trivial and get pissy about it. Hence my previous entry, because a looming strike at work, issues in my marriage, and frustrations from another relationship were just too hard. DA is an easy target for my anger. I am happy to say that I did nothing about it outside of venting.

2. I have been seeking my mother's approval all of my life. I accepted a while ago that I would never truly get it. What I didn't realize that people who push the same buttons as my mother will cause me to want their approval. This sets me up for a lot of heartbreak.

Thankfully a tentative agreement has been reached, so the strike is likely off. My husband and I took some extra time together this weekend and I feel that things are better. The other relationship and I did some difficult and challenging communication and that seems to be better too. 

There is more, but I have a lot on my plate these days, and so I will keep today's entry short and sweet.

The song for today is an easy one, given the upcoming week of weather and how I am feeling.



Today's Song - I Can See Clearly Now by The Hothouse Flowers

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