"And if I left you there, would you know why?"

Last night I had my spinach moment. "That's all I can stands, and I can't stands no more!" (The article defines it as a huge change, but I just learned that it's a moment where you won't turn back.)

 All of the rage, frustration, and feelings of being thwarted bubbled to the surface and just poured out of me.

I don't think I recognized how angry I have been. While I have been doing all the things to help my TMJ, this morning was the first one in a long while where I didn't wake up in excruciating pain. Today, I felt a little sore on the way to work and realized that I hadn't taken anything for the pain before leaving home.

Regrettably, my anger wasn't a righteous riot against a bully. There was no Bluto and I wasn't protecting Olive Oyl. As my students would say, I am salty. My anger was directed to the correct person, but I had been holding on to it for too long. It came out in a stream of vitriol and poison.

I don't know what I want to do now. I drew a boundary and I guess I'll see what happens, if anything.

I heard today's song on the way to work and it seemed appropriate.