"Don't feel like dancin', dancin'; Even if I find nothin' better to do..."

I find blogging to be fairly useful. I emotionally bleed all over the internet. It keeps my drama nicely contained and mostly out of my day-to-day life.

It isn't my entire life and I know that. I worry that people might think that I am just this bundle of psychoses and emotional storms. I suppose it shouldn't bother me, but it does.

I worry that people will think that they know what's going on with me because I give a few slices here. I am not worrying about being judged. I had a friend recently ask me if I had read about something on Facebook. When I mentioned that I had, they abruptly changed the subject because they didn't want to bore me. I didn't know how to say that I really didn't remember the details and I would be happy if they would tell me more.

I never want to assume that anyone reads, much less remembers, what I write. I also wouldn't want anyone to think that because they read something, that's all there is to a situation. I know that people will make their assumptions no matter what, but I would rather people ask than assume. I would rather people tell me something I read on social media, because I know from personal experience that social media is a shallow reflection of what's really going on.

There's a great song by the Scissor Sisters, it's really catchy and I have heard it a lot of dance venues. I find it really funny that the title is "I Don't Feel Like Dancin'". I chose the song because there is a lot more to the song than just the title. The song describes how I've been feeling recently. I know dancing would make me feel better, but it's been difficult to gumption to go. However, it's not just because of how I have been feeling, but because of situations that I haven't describes that makes attending my usual venues emotionally complicated and I'm feeling too vulnerable to brave new ones.