"They say time heals everything; but I'm still waiting..."

I am at a loss. I am so angry and I don't know what to do about it. I do not like having strong emotions about my job. Employers have no reason to be loyal to me. I have learned that the hard way on numerous occasions.

I appreciate that I am part of a union. There is more camaraderie when colleagues aren't competing for open positions or promotions. However, my first three years of teaching I had a department head who was manipulative and had it not been for an administration that actively supported me, I am not sure I would have make it to my fourth year of teaching.

I know that I need to remember that just because this project didn't pan out, isn't the end of the world. Another opportunity will come along. However, teaching doesn't offer any path towards promotion unless I want to go into administration, which isn't terribly interesting to me. A project like the one that was just taken is as close as I have found, so to have lost it feels like a demotion.

I know I would miss teaching, but maybe I wouldn't feel trapped. I hope a weekend of rest clears my head.