Trouble reaching the summit

I have been in pain since the beginning of May. There have been multiple visits to various doctors and tests. If one more person tells me that it's muscle pain, I will scream.

I am at work, but only barely. I am sitting at my desk and killing time until I have to go home. I can't focus on anything. I am starting to worry about my summer plans. I don't know how I can do them if I am still feeling like this.

The depression is crippling. Every little thing is getting to me. I feel like I am never going to figure out what's wrong. I don't want another weekend where I don't do anything.

I am waiting for a phone call, a message, something from the urology specialist. I know I just have to wait, but I keep watching my e-mail for an update. The fact that I was hoping for another e-mail which hasn't been answered for a week isn't helping things. I just feel like no one sees me. I know it's not true, but that's what it feels like.

I heard today's song, it's just been released. It made me feel somewhat better. I couldn't find the lyrics, so no quote today.

Today's Song - The Summit by Avi Kaplan