"Till now I always got by on my own..."

When I was a kid, I used to "clean" my room by stuffing everything in my closet or under my bed. My room would look clean, but it wasn't. When my mother figured it out, she made me pull everything out of my closet and from under my bed. She told me that anything I could not find a place for, I would have to get rid of. It was not a pleasant day.

I realize that with many people, their lives are like a room that looks clean, but is actually hiding a huge mess in the closet and a bunch of crap under the bed. It's really easy to just accept that the room is clean and ignore the mess. I also believe that it isn't my place to tell someone how they should keep their lives.

However in a relationship, it's different. Friendship, marriage, whatever the relationship between people is, that seems to me a time when the emotional closets can be emptied or at least picked through.

One of the problems is that clearing out a closet is a lot of work. It takes a lot of focus, it feels like it's the only thing that I can do. It feels like I can only do it with one person at a time. I feel like there's a lot of crap in my closet. While the people who read this blog know that my room isn't really clean, I think I still try to pretend that everything is just fine.

The song is a sideways connection, not directly related to this post. But it's pretty.