"we can't rewind we've gone to far..."

I am in a rotten mood, I will fully own that. Me = crappy mood

I had two online interactions tonigh and both went south. I am sure my mood didn't help, but people are sometimes assholes and I got a double dose tonight.

I was talking to a friend, someone I think I can count on. When I told them that things were going poorly and that I needed them, they said, "I hope you can find support, especially since most of the things troubling you are unrelated to me." Now, in the proper context, what they said was appropriate, there are other people that I can rely on, but it was also dismissive and rude.

At about the same time, I was being chatted up by a guy who was interested in getting to know me. I had warned him that today wasn't a good day. He didn't show much empathy. We only exchanged a few texts back and forth before he asked for a video chat. (Dude, what part of bad day and tired did you miss?) I told him no and so, of course, he asked for a pic. Now, in the proper context, what they asked was appropriate, I had seen a picture of him, but it was also dismissive and rude.

I have to admit, I’m not terribly impressed with online interactions right now. I think communicating with people online becomes too much like shopping on Amazon. We think we can pick and choose our interactions based on a series of criteria. We want it to be similar to the way we buy speakers. (I am totally ripping this idea off from my housemate, Shawn.)

I feel like the people I spoke with tonight were saying, "Hey it's great that you are Bluetooth compatible, have a state of the art equalizer and can fill a room with sound, but you're not compact enough for people who frequently travel, as useful as I find you, I just don't want you right now. However, when I need speakers for my desktop, you'll be the first person I'll call."

Fuck both of you! I am a person behind the screen, could you try to remember that?

 - It seems that my needs were inconvenient tonight. If I was asking you for support, guess what, it's because I didn't think I would get it elsewhere! I'm glad to know that when I'm inconvenient, you'll make sure to dismiss me as such. I'll remember that in the unlikely event that I will ever offer you my time and effort again.

 - It seems that you weren't interested in getting to know a real person who has bad days and and is tired. You wanted to make some sort of connection, but on your terms and no concern for how I was doing. I'll remember that in the unlikely event that I talk to you again.

I have to say that I had one friend that I mostly only talk to online who was very sweet and wonderful tonight.

So a second post today and again the song was a gimme: