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October 25, 2019

"'Cause I remember all the times I tried so hard..."

I am in a crappy mood. Maybe it's hormonal, I don't know, but I wish I weren't at work or dealing with the world today.

1)  LT and I have had a communication issue. I am getting fussed. I tried to be direct. I am waiting to hear back. I am hoping that it's just because of timing.

2)  Keto pushed for a conversation yesterday. Thankfully, it did not go long or get combative. Regrettably, it did not resolve any of the issues. How do I explain to someone that fitting them into a packed schedule when we have had minimal contact and communication isn't worth my time?

3) Someone shared information with me regarding the upcoming mediation. I saw it in the early morning, I took it poorly, made some assumptions and popped off.

When I considered the information again, it seems that the choice was made by the other party a few days ago, before the Powers That Be communicated with me. I guess what I wrote yesterday had nothing to do with the other party's decision. It was already made.

It will probably make things easier for the season and I appreciate that. However, it means that I haven't the foggiest how to attend dance events that this person is associated with. I hoped that if I waited long enough (like over three damn years), I could at least attend events. I still feel that it wouldn't be wise.

My life is a good one. I really realize that. That's why I think this is hormonal and/or chemical. I will have my meds looked at ASAP.

Sorry for the drama folks.

Today's Song is just a general declaration of how I am feeling.



Today's Song - I Don't Care Anymore by Phil Collins


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