I was supposed to go dancing tonight. I was supposed to go dancing with my daughter in Oakland tonight. I had avoided the event because I did not want to cause pain to Kevin. While I know I am not responsible for someone else's feelings, I was trying to be sympathetic and understanding of Kevin's feelings.

I felt that I had given Kevin enough time to deal with his issues with me. It's a public dance event. My daughter would feel welcome and accepted at a queer oriented event. I wanted to bring her.

So why am I not there? Because now I have a new person to fucking avoid. The reason my problems with Kevin started in the first place, Benjamin.

Long story short, I was dumped. I got the "we can be friends" line, which would have been fine if Ben hadn't decided that I was boring and that he could do better with someone else. What's really bad? He won't even admit that there is someone else. He says they are just friends. Funny how he lost interest in me after he started seeing her.

I don't want to see him. I don't want to see him with her. If I go to the dance event, that's what I have to face. I have to tell my daughter to either go alone (she's 22) or tell her to wait until her mother gets over some guy who dumped her.

I am hurt, I am pissed, and I am frustrated. I don't understand what went wrong in the relationship, other than it had to be ended because the guy was tired of me. It hurts more than I can explain. I am embarrassed, how could I have been so stupid to love someone who would treat me like this?