"Where were you when I played solitaire?"

I know this is dumb, you don't have to tell me. For most of the day, all I have wanted to do is contact DA and ask him, "Are we finished with this fight yet? This is really tiresome and I have a bunch of things I want to ask you about. Not only that, but I have two articles I want you to read, three pictures to show you and my dog keeps going into the spare room looking for you. I think she misses you. Can we be done now?"

Then I remember that DA ended the relationship and this is a fight that won't be over. There is no fight, just the reality he wanted. (And it is the best thing for both of us, right?)

Obviously I haven't contacted him. I just play a hand of solitaire every time I get the itch. I figure playing a game that isn't always solvable is a good reminder that sometimes the only answer is to pick up the cards and deal again.

I go back to work full time tomorrow and I start teaching classes in a week. I am hoping that the distraction will help, because I am really tired of feeling this way and while venting helping (thank you for bearing with me) I am really tired of this being a part of my routine. I just want to turn my feelings off and get on with my life.

 I've played a lot of solitaire recently; so at least that makes the song choice an easy one.