"Just think while you've been getting down and out about the liars and the dirty, dirty cheats in the world...."

I stopped posting in my tarot blog to avoid drama. That's really funny because my director found the tarot blog and took entries out of context. Instead of talking to me quietly, they brought it up on a conference call that involved six other people and made the drama worse, not better. What's really funny is that the majority of the people who were on the call are able to read this blog while my director is not.  This incident explains why.

I think that my director jumped to conclusion that my tarot blog was the writing that the Powers That Be (PTB) had been complaining about. I doubt that the PTB were ever aware of it. I think my director took a comment about my blog from last year out of context. I feel they chose to find a problem and pin it on me a month later instead of discussing it with me when it was brought up.

Before this all came up, I stopped posting to the tarot blog because I was concerned that my ex was reading it and that it might create drama. In all fairness, the tarot blog had stopped being about tarot and had turned into venting, so it was the right thing to do.

I didn't stop doing tarot. I just don't make the readings public. A friend suggested that I not post again until the season is over. Given what happened with my director, I am inclined to agree, it would make things peaceful. However, it feels like I am compromising. This isn't like last year when I was in clear violation of the policy. My tarot blog never referred to a performance group or anyone by name. Even if you knew me and spoke to me on a regular basis, most people didn't know who I was talking about.

I am tired of being told what I can and cannot write. I am tired of people thinking that they have any right to tell me what I am allowed to post. I suppose that's a me problem. But this a me journal and I want to post in my tarot blog and I feel like I can't. It's pissing me off.

I don't see anyone limiting what the other parties have to say or post. No one publicly told my ex that his post on a group list we are both on was inappropriate. In fact, he had the audacity to bitch about how people weren't being supportive of a post that was off topic. I don't see anyone telling the other person that posting to his performance group that he is being harassed and that the management isn't doing enough is inflammatory. Maybe someone said something to them, but it really feels like having a penis gives people a pass for bad behavior whereas I have to toe the line and/or agree to be censored.

I know I should let it go and thus that is what I am trying to do by venting. 

Today's song is a bit of an unusual choice. It is applicable, however it's the video that I wanted to share more than the music. I love the body language and expression of the person doing the ASL. I use this for my students when we discuss deaf expression. I strongly recommend watching it without the sound.

Today's Song  - Shake it Off by Taylor Swift (as interpreted by Molly Bartholomew)