"I know I'm not a hopeless case..."

As I mentioned on Facebook, I went to the doctor and for the first time in a long while, the news was all good.

• A1c was 8.0 in November 2016, now it is 6.6. 
• My blood pressure is normal for my age. (albeit with help from a low-dose blood pressure medicine)
• My kidney functions are back to normal and there are no protein issues. 
• My thyroid numbers are, for the first time since 2007, a little lower than they should be. 
• Not only have I lost weight, but it has been such a slow loss, my doctor is thinking that I should be able to maintain and sustain it. 
• Pilates was a great thing to start. Only six sessions, and I am seeing a lot of improvement already.
• Overall, I just feel better. 

I can't explain how gratifying it felt to have the seamstress come over with the corset mock-up from last year and and then have her take it in some three inches. I am really happy with the silhouette it made once she got it all fitted. In that corset, I have a nearly perfect hourglass figure. I am so glad I didn't get it done last year.

I wonder how my mental capacities are doing, although I am glad that I haven't had to really put them to the test. Work is challenging, but so far it's manageable. I am happy that I can just teach and work on my craft and that someone else was willing to be department head. I am very happy to have received my units from Stanford. I was reminded how much I love learning, so I need to get academia back into my life.

Keto may be an interesting diversion or it might be nothing. I wrote him a thank you note, I kept it short and sweet. I said that I hoped that he enjoyed himself as much as I did and thanked him.  I haven't heard back.

I am trying not to fuss about whether or not he answers. If nothing else, I am reminded of a lesson I learned when I was 20 and still have yet to internalize. People like me. If I would just take them at their word and quit undercutting myself, I might actually start to believe it.

So today, I went to U2 for some inspiration.