"And my story is a waste of time..."

Last year a man came up and demanded my attention while I was at the Christmas fair. He was someone who had stalked me and who told people that I had stolen his boyfriend. I was in the middle of a street gig and it was the first time doing it in front of an audience. I was waiting for my cue. This man put me on the spot in front of patrons, knowing that I would not want to make a scene on the first day of fair. He put me into a position where I had to interact with him or walk away from a scripted gig.

A woman, who also had issues with him, came to my rescue. She made it possible for my scene to continue.

My boyfriend made excuses for him. Yes, that same boyfriend I "stole". The same boyfriend who knew this person, who had been on the receiving end of his stalking and abuse, told me that I probably misunderstood. He felt that I should just let it go.

I spoke up. I told a director right after it happened. That director told me that they would not get involved in a personal matter and that I needed to speak to my own director. I told the stage manager and I was called a drama queen for not handling it myself. I told my own director and I was finally listened to.

The man's director decided that it was a personal matter as well. They pushed back on my director and told my boyfriend's director that there was trouble. That was the last my boyfriend ever heard of it. However, I heard about it every single following weekend.

I was not allowed to be in the man's theatrical space when he was performing. I agreed to it. He was not supposed to be in mine. He pushed that boundary every chance he got.

I was told he would be banned from my area, but that was walked back within a weekend.

My boyfriend was more concerned about the feelings of a mutual friend of his and the man than about my feelings or safety. He was worried that she might get the fallout. (He is no longer my boyfriend.)

This man never sexually assaulted me. He yelled at me. He threatened me with physical violence. He stalked me. He made me feel unsafe. He called me sexually charged names (like whore and bitch) and he blamed me for ending a relationship that had been over for months. However, he has never sexually assaulted me so I am not in danger.

I have been told that this man will return to the fair this year, even though he violated the agreement to stay out of my space. I have already been informed that I am not to be in his theatrical space. I have received no assurances that he will stay out of mine. I have been told that my safety is not at risk and that I am overreacting.

The only safety I have is by my fellow cast members who have offered to insulate me from this man.

This man has documented issues with mental stability. His irrational behavior toward me and others has been witnessed by many people. However do you want to know what I was told? I was told to leave him alone and not exacerbate the situation. It is somehow my job to make sure that he doesn't get upset and cause an incident.

This man is the reason that I cannot do dances I have done for over 20 years at the Christmas fair.

I am not fucking surprised that Kavanaugh passed the committee hearing. Even when a woman comes forward and puts her reputation at risk, she is not believed and her concerns are not addressed. This man has been a problem in my life for three years. People don't care and tell me it's my problem. So no, I am not fucking surprised at all.